Mesmerizing the Ultra

So it's a revival of a blog that only two people know the URL to. I'm not really sure why I feel the need to have a seperate blog from the one that I already have but here I am again.

I'm pretty muddled right now. I'm torn between trying to make the things in my life right that need attention and breaking down and running back to the people in my life that have hurt me. I don't know why I feel the need for somebodies affection as much as I do... but I am pretty disgusted with myself for it. I wish that i was stronger and more grounded with myself than I apparently am... but I'm not.
I don't really have anything special or thought out to say to this... but I needed to write this little bit out... just for me.