FUCK YEAH!

’see, I think drugs have done some *good* things for us, I really do.And if you don’t believe drugs have done good things for us, do me aFavor: go home tonight and take all your albums, all your tapes, and allYour cd’s and burn em’. cause you konw what? the musicians who’ve madeAll that great music that’s enhanced your lives throughout the years...
Rrrrrrrrrrrrreal fuckin high on drugs.’

--bill hicks ’another dead hero’--
Dreaming of that face again.I
t’s bright and blue and shimmering.
Grinning wide
And comforting me
with it’s three warm and wild eyes.
On my back and tumbling
Down that hole and back again
Rising up
And wiping the webs and the dew from my withered eye.
In... out... in... out... in... out...
A child’s rhyme stuck in my head.
It said that life is but a dream.
I’ve spent so many years in question
To find I’ve known this all along.
’so good to see you.I’ve missed you so much.
So glad it’s over.
I’ve missed you so much
Came out to watch you play.
Why are you running?
’Shroud-ing all the ground around me
Is this holy crow above me.
Black as holes within a memory
And blue as our new second sun.
I stick my hand into his shadow
To pull the pieces from the sand.
Which I attempt to reassemble
To see just who I might have been.
I do not recognize the vessel,
But the eyes seem so familiar.
Like phosphorescent desert buttons
Singing one familiar song...
’so good to see you.
I’ve missed you so much.
So glad it’s over.
I’ve missed you so much.
Came out to watch you play.
Why are you running away?
’Prying open my third eye.
So good to see you once again.
I thought that you were hiding.
And you thought that I had run away.
Chasing the tail of dogma.
I opened my eye and there we were.
So good to see you once again
I thought that you were hiding from me.
And you thought that I had run away.
Chasing a trail of smoke and reason
.Prying open my third eye

FUCK!!!!

TOOL! THE GREATEST LYRICS EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So here I am. In my office, alone, with my ipod cranked and my headphones on.. running around singing Tool as loud as I can justify ( which is much much too loud ) and dancing around banging my head like a monkey.

FUCK! I love it!!!!!!!!!!!!

"So familiar and overwhelmingly warm
This one, this form I hold now.
Embracing you,
this reality here,
This one,
this form I hold now,
soWide eyed and hopeful.
Wide eyed and hopefully wild.
We barely remember what came before
this precious moment,
Choosing to be here
right now.
Hold on,
stay inside...
This body holding me,
reminding me that I am not alone in
This body
makes me feel
........ eternal.
All this pain is an illusion."

Thank you Ms. Pussycat for the gorgeous bead twisting job for the center piece!! woot!

Diversify the group

Alright.
I have been enlightened with some wicked fucking new rock music. Oh which i have 2 whole cd's of at my house... and no sound to listen to it with. AHHH!
The horror of it all.
Really.

And just for fun here's some pirate cats.

oh sweet pillows of bliss
envelope me in your fairyland of dreams
and candy coated adventures

Shake dreams from your hair
My pretty child, my sweet one.
Choose the day and choose the sign of your day
The day's divinity
First thing you see.

A vast radiant beach in a cool jeweled moon
Couples naked race down by it's quiet side
And we laugh like soft, mad children
Smug in the wooly cotton brains of infancy
The music and voices are all around us.

~ Jim Morrison

and this is what it looks like!

with my lopsided grin and al

Clarity at last.

4:30am on Friday. I swear that as I was standing on that bridge, all by myself, with not a soul in sight or earshot... I found myself. I have never felt so in touch or in tune with who I am in my life, and it was like everything that has been shitty and getting me down in the last weeks just totally disipated and rolled itself up into the light layer of fog that was on the water below me. It was invigorating, and probably one of the most intense things I have ever felt in my life.... I know that if I ever find somebody who makes me feel like that I would never ever let them go.... I know I have certainly never felt something so powerful before... and that was just me projecting that. I cant imagine what it would be like to have two people share something like that.... damn!